You hold a piece of me, no matter who you are with
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Oh well, if u think i'm emo... Just to inform that this is a title of a book.
Is that what i feel at the moment though? hmmm.. Maybe a bit? But it's not in a Emo way. I am by no means gonna kill myself or anything!
Only that he do holds a special place in my heart.
Every time i visit Guan Yin Ma, i will always wish for (1) Good grades (2) Health and Happiness to family and friends (3)Wish him well. And lastly, Good grades again! Without fail! I can't deny that he is special to me, but from the looks of it, Good Grades are still more impt to me. I've always wished for wellness for family and friends and him, yet never for myself. But i do hope Guan Yin Ma will dote on me and bless me with good grades! hahahahaa
In any case, studies come 1st, and he will always remain in a corner of my heart.
Who am i, What am i, Why am i
Saturday, February 07, 2009
For some reasons, i feel ABnormal these days. Not in sense of the dictionary explanation for that word, but rather, i feel something's weird about me and how people around me are acting.
I cant find a word to my feeling right now. I'm not happy, not sad, not angry, not disappointed. not ANYTHING. it's as if i have 抛开七情六欲, but then again not really. I'm not EMO either. No suicidal tendencies! But it's like a lot of emotions swelling up, all to my neckline, so much so i cant think logically anymore.
All my brain registers is to do well for studies.
But all that said, i don't feel motivated to pick up my notes and mug.
I don't have an answer. Maybe i need a psychologist or something to help me.. lol.
Really glad that my math econs tutor is some1 familiar, and one i can approach..
OMG! Am i pretentious?
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
Was reading .. 表里不一的星座情人?
第二名：双鱼座
演技派第一名，会担心锋芒太露所以掩藏智慧，会扮纯真让你失去戒心，会故意示弱向你寻求保护，还会一边将你洞察得一清二楚，却装作什么也不知道。所有的表演都非故意，而是本能。以此带来的种种错觉，其实是为保持一种若即若离的朦胧美。
Somehow it sounds true but when reading it, it makes me feel that i am a pretentious bitch! lol
As i continue reading moreof these horoscope stuff..
This is the power of internet.. it gets u hooks by offering links and more links to related sites that might interest the reader...
In 六种星座女生最让男人受罪.. My horoscope was featured in the following..
2、一个没有自我的女人
她可能从未好好关爱过自己。当一位需要照顾的人出现时，她自然就把关注点全部投在对方身上，倾尽全力为对方付出。她愿意随时随地接受并承担情感世界里出现的责难、内疚。她不是为自己活，而是为了别人；与其说她是无私奉献的乖乖女，不如说她是失去自我的爱情奴隶。但是，婚姻是一种平等的伴侣关系，而不是主人与奴仆的关系。伴着一个没有自我的女人，男人承担的是最沉最重的情感包袱。除非你是一个冷酷的男人，能坦然接受她的“牺牲”。而对于她自己来说，一旦男人因为某种原因而离她而去，她可能会因不能接受现实而崩溃。
警惕的星座：双鱼座、处女座、天秤座。双鱼女和处女女都是那种平时可能很有个性又有原则，但一遇到自己在乎的人，双鱼会本能地百依百顺，而处女则完全失了章法，要么逃避离开要么就自我太强，处处想控制……天秤女则总是把目光对着对方的行为，或者与其他朋友的伴侣们做对比参考，几乎忘记了自己的真实想法。这些星女会让男人慢慢失去激情。
4、一个拒绝真实的女人
她从未有过自信，即使幸福来到身边，她也不相信这是真的。她怀疑一切，包括爱情，因为她的心理无法承受爱的温馨。如果与这样的女人走入婚姻，你要随时准备好应对她的敏感与多疑，并且要为她承担一切生活中的狂风暴雨。同样，如果情感遇到波折，她也只会让自己在一个充满幻想的世界里生活，远离真实的现实。就像鸵鸟一样，在遇到危难的时候，把头埋到沙子里，以为不去面对就万事大吉了。实际上，她只是没有勇气面对现实。
警惕的星座：狮子座、双鱼座。狮子女虽然骄傲，其实容易对爱情悲观。而悲观的背后是不切实际的渴望，认为自己得不到最想要的美好的爱情。所以爱情后来了会不能相信或失望不已。失恋了也不能面对。这是狮子女最大的硬伤。而双鱼女虽然也容易不够现实，但她能承受甚至享受这种悲伤的情绪，不像狮子那么昏暗。但同情的是她比狮子沉溺幻想更深更长久和习惯……
I think many of these points raised are really feelings from deep inside my heart..
Link as follows.. http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_5014b2590100c70m.html~type=v5_one&label=rela_articletagpub
Random...
Had a(relatively) long day today.. Had Lerk Thai again.. As usual, our weekly dosage.. lol...
And my lecturer went singing Cai Shen Dao in class and giving out candies that he took out from a golden basket! Was totally amusing... lol
Anyways.. came across this site : http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_5014b2590100c7d3.html~type=v5_one&label=rela_articletagpub
It about how each horoscope sees vows (十二星座山盟海誓的可信指数排行榜).. And for me...
★双鱼座
对天盟誓表现：经常不愿立誓
可信指数：☆☆
双鱼在谈恋爱的初期阶段比较三心二意，爱意变化很大。他们也自知即使立下爱的誓言也只是徒具其形，未必能真的信守誓约，所以他们不愿意在谈恋爱最热情的时候向对方立誓。就算对方因此而不满，双鱼仍会对当天立誓的行为有所保留，宁愿以行动来表示他们的爱意。
I think it sounds like a compliment to me!! wahahaha... But i really do feel that i am such a person though.. Not all that faithful from the beginning kind of person. =X.. And i don't like to take vows that i can't keep regardless how you feel about it. Actions speak louder than words!!
Oh ya, and on another on my horoscopes virtues, i was said to be.. 双鱼座：温柔，体贴，文静而沉默，做事细。 Wahahahaha.. So amusing but pleasing!!
